Meri Life Ka Pehla Ehsaas

Hi friends mera naam Manoj hai aur mai bilaspur ke chhote se family se hu. mai apni love story aap ke sath share krne ja rha hu. mai hamesa se hi pyar ke khilaf rha hu. jab kabhi bhi mai kissi lovers ke bare me sunta ki wo love meriz hai. mai unhe bhut gaali deta tha.shayad yahi karan god ne mujhe unki jagah pe lakar aaj khada kr diya hai. to mai apni story aap ko btane ja rha hu. hum garib hai. garibi ke karan hi mai padhai nhi kar paya aur 12 saal ki umar se kaam karna suru kar diya. mere dost bhi gine chune hai.mere 2 bhai aur bahan hai. mujhe koi ladki agar alag najar se dekhe to mai use pahle se hi bahan bol deta tha. aur uski sari filing khatam ho jati thi. aisa hi mai apni zindagi jita tha. shadiyo ka sizan aaya. mera ek dost jiska naam raj uski sister aur bhai ka shadi tha.usne khas dost hone ke nate mujhe shadi ke stating se ending tak rahne ko bola. maine bhi ha kar di. aur shadi wale din vo mujhe lene aaya. uska village mere ghar se 20 k.m. door tha. aur ham ek hi bike pe nikle. 5 k.m jane ke baad dost ke mobile pe call aaya aur bola raste me kisi rilesan ko lane bola gya.hum unke ghar gaye to bataya gaya ke we chale gaye aur hum waha se ek aur bike rakh liya. 1 k.m ke baad hme we raste me mil gaye. wo 3 ladkiya thi 2 ladkiya ko mere dost ne bithaya aur ek ko mujhe baithane ko kaha. maine unhe bitha liya aur bike chalane laga.mera dost kafi speed se bike chala rha tha mai dhire. ham dono shant baithe the. phir mai ne pahle se baat ki baat utni khass nhi thi. mai unki padhai ke baare me pucha. to wo boli 10th class. to maine aage padhai ke liye bola to boli family problem hai esliye nhi padh payi.hum fir ghar phuch gaye aur apne apne kaam pr lag gaye. sham ko me chat pe gya to wo niche kuchh kar rahi thi aur baar baar mujhe dekh rhi thi. to mai apni dost ke sister se uska naam pucha to usne uska naam suman btaya aur mai chala gya. 2 dino se wo mujhe hi dekhati rahti thi.par me uski taraf dekhata hi nhi tha. baraat aane wali thi usse pahle sister ne mujhe bola ke bhai aap ko sumaan like karti hai. mai chup raha aur sochne laga sach hai ya nhi. fir mai thodi der baad unse pucha to usne ha me sir hilaya. pr mujhe pyar nhi tha.me yahi soch rha tha ke ladki juthi hai aur raat me mujhe khana khana tha. mai apni sister se bola to usne mujhe bethane ko kha aur khana suman ne la kar diya aur samne baith gayi. aur khane ke liye boli mai khane laga fir usne mujhe mera jutha chodne ke liye bola mai nhi mana to usne plet jabrdasti chhin li.aur khane lagi mujhe ajib file ho raha tha. baad me mai sone ke liye chhat pr chala gya aur wo bhi mere pichhe aa gayi. sidiyo me baith kr mujhe dekhane lagi. mai so gya aur subah utha to dekhta hi rah gaya wo wese hi bethi thi. maine apne friend se puchha to usne bola wo raat bhar tujhe dekh rhi thi.usne bola mai tujhe uthane wala tha pr usne hi mana kr diya. yaha se mujhe khuch hone laga. mai yahi sochne laga ke kya koi mere liye raat kese jaag sakti hai aur mai bhi use love karne laga. me uske liye shadi khatam hone ke baad bhi 3 din ruk gya. indigo me aisa lagta tha.jese duniya me sirf hum dono hi hai baki ko khuch khane se pahle share jarur krte the mano mujhe aisa lagta tha ki zindgi usi se suru aur usi me khatam hai. mujhe usse jyada bahut jyada love ho gya tha. pr mai uska test lena chahta tha. mai usse bola ke agar tum mujhe pyar karti ho to shabit karo.jis se mujhe yakin ho jaye. yah bol kr mai mud gaya aur piche usne apne hath blead se cut kr diya aur rone lagi. mai muda to dekha uske hath se bhut jyada khoon nikl raha tha. maine uske hath me rumal bandh kr use gale se laga liya aur andar se rone laga.Maine wada liya ke kabhi aisa nhi krna fir hum apne apne ghar aa gaye. me apne ghar aane ke baad mera maan hi nhi lag raha tha. fir raat ko uska call aaya aur hum pure 3 ghante baat ki. eske baad bhi hamara maan nahi bhara tha. phir bhi hum ne dusre din baat karne ka waada lekar phone cut kar diye.meri life ka ye pehla ehsaas tha. maine use hi apni zindagi maan liya tha. maine uske call ka intzar karne laga. pr dusre din uska call nhi aaya. maine socha shayad khuch problem honga ye shoch kr chup rah gaya. aur call ka intzar krne laga. par 3 din hone ke baad bhi call nhi aaya.to maine uske number pe call kiya. pr koi rispance hi nhi mila. mai presan rahne laga aur hamesha kosish ki par phone pe mujhe nhi mili to mai use dundhane uske ghar gaya pr wo mujhe dekhati hi nahi thi. phir 7 dino ke baad uska call aaya mai khhus ho gya aur apne god ke shamne hath jod kr phone uthaya to wah rone lagi.maine pucha kya huwa. to usne kaha mujhe bhul jao. me aap ke layak nahi hu. aur etna kehke usne call cut krdiya. baad me mene fir se call lagaya to swichoff aane laga. ab pata nhi dosto kya huwa honga.Submitted By - Manoj