kabhi ak naa ho paye – ishika

hello everyone myself ishita or aj mai apko apni ak complicated luv story sunana chahti hun.maine aj tk srf ak larke se pyr kiya hai.kartik jo meri lyf mai bhtt important toh hai pr mere sth nhi hai yaa shyd usne meri feelings kbhi smjhi hi nhi.<br>

so yeh kahani school sai shuru hoti hai.jb mai 8 class mai thi tb meri ak friend thi vani jo mere sth sb share krti thi us class mai ak nya larka aaya kartik jo larkiyon ke sath bhi bohot frank tha mai usse bilkul baat nhi krti thi bilkul nhi or vani usse bohott baatein krti thi or vo dono bohot close ho gye. nd believe me uss tym mujhe usse koi frk nhi pada. fir ak din vani ko pta chala uske doston se ki kartik uske liye kch feel krta hai. vani ko uski dusri friens ne kaha ki kartik ak bohott hi smart larka hai or school mai bhi bhtt famous hai to tu bhi uske sth relationship mai aa jaa. sirf iss vajh se vani ne use i luv u bol diya.or vo dono sth rhne lge mujhe vani uski hr cheez bataya krti thi.dheere dheere dusra saal aya or hum 9 mai chale gye but sad iss saal vani ke papa ka transfar Lucknow ho gya or vo vhan chli gyi kartik ko bohot bura lga.

jb 9 class shuru hui toh meri or kartik ki baatein bhi shuru huin.kartik ak bhtt accha insan hai or bhtt zyada loyal bhi main jitna use janti hun vo dusro ki madad bhi hamesha krta hai. meri or uski baatein ak friendship mai bdl gyi or vo mujhe vani ki baatein bhi btata tha ki vo daily vani se baatein krta hai.or mai uske lye khush bhi thi.but mai use bhtt zyada emotionally attached ho gyi.vo jb mujhe kch faltu bolta ya kbhi kbhi mera mazak urata to mai rone lg jaati thi.hum dono as a friend ak dusre ki bhtt care bhi krte the.mere saare friends ne mujhe yeh cheez khi ki tujhe usse pyaar ho gya hai or tu yeh maan le lakin mai yeh maanana nhi chahti thi. par yrr mai hmsha usi ke baare mai sochti rhti thi but maine use kbhi apni yeh feelings share nhi kri.kyunki mai nhi chahti thi ki mai uske or vani ke beech mai aaun.or mai sirf uski ak acchi dost bni rhi.then hamari 10 class aayi.iss class mai bhi maine use kch nhi bataya kyunki mai nhi chahti thi ki iss ki vjh se vo mujhse baat naa kre.but kartik ne mujhse kaha ki mai uski bst friend hun.or vo vani ki saari har ak baatein batata tha .pr ak din kartik ka ak friend tha laksh jiski ak friend thi aahana jo Lucknow mai rhti thi or vani ki bhi friend thi vo.usne laksh ko kch photos bheji jisme vani ak dusre larke ko kiss kr rhi thi or vo dono ak dusre ko hug bhi kr rhe the and us photo ko neeche likha hua tha one year of happy relationship.<br>

in photos ko laksh ne kartik ko send kri.kartik uss din bohott roya kyunki uska pyr sccha tha vani ke liye.par kartik ne yh baat kisi ko nhi batayi or school bhi nhi aaya or sirf rota tha.yeh baat mujhe laksh ne batayi ki iss vjh se kartik schl nhi aa rha.mujhe uske liya dil se bohot bura lga coz vo tut sa gya tha.maine iske baare mai jb vani se pucha to usne mujhe koi reply nhi kiya or block kr diya.usne fir kartik ko yeh msz kiya that i hate u mujhe yhan kisi or lrke se pyaar ho gya hai or iss msz ke bd usne kartik ko bhi block kr diya maine iss baare mai kartik se baat krneki koshish ki but usne mera phone bhi nhi uthaya or baat bhi nhi kari.sirf mujhse hi nhi blki kisi se bhi usne baat nhi kri.5 dino baad jb vo school aaya tb bhtt sad lg rha tha kisi se baat bhi nhi kari usne.buss hass rha tha or keh rha tha ki use kuch bhi nhi hua.

mujhe bhi ab schl chorna tha 10 ke baad but mai kartik ke sth rhna chahti thi but mere parents ne mera schl change krva diya tha or ab ma bs 1 month or thi iss schl mai pr meri himmat kbhi bhi nhi hui ki mai use apni feelings bta sakun.mere friends ne force kiya ki last kch din hai tu schl mai to usse bta de.maine bhi himmat kr ke use apne pass bulaya.vo uss tym bohott hi normal tha maine use kaha that i love u mujhe nhi pta tu mere baare mai kya sochta hai but meri lyf mai tere baad koi nhi aa skta or teri jgh bhi koi nhi le skta mai buss tujhe apni feelings bta rhi hun. usne bhtt acche se meri baat suni or everyone were saying that ki vo blush kr rha tha but vo mujhe kuch kahe use pehle hi mai uth krchli gyi. ghr aakr mujhe bohott guilt huaki shyd mujhe yeh baat use abhi nhi khni chahiye thi vaise vo sad tha uper se maine use yh sb keh diya. maine use msg kra ki tujhe ajeeb to nhi lgi meri baatein??

usne kaha nhii i really respect your feelings or usne bhi kaha ki meri lyf mai bhi tu bohtt imp. hai but yd kr vani or mera jb relation start hua uske baad hi vo schl chorr kr chali gyi or mujhe hurt bhi kiya and tu bhi ab schl chorr rhi hai tu bhi mujhe bhul jayegi maine usse samjhaya ki mai use lyf mai kbhi nhii bhul skti or uske alawa meri lyf mai naa to koi pehle tha or naahi koi hoga but he said ki uska pyaar se bharosa uth gya hai or ab vo kisi pr trust nhi kr skta nd usne mujhe kha tu meri hamesha ak acchi dost rhi gi but isse zyada hum kuch or nhi soch skte. mai iss baat se hurt to hui but kch kaha nhii.bohott se baatein khni thi pr keh nhi paayi.or mere dost mujhe keh rhe hai ki schl chorne ke baad tu usse bàt mt krio kyunki baat kr ke tu khud hurt hogi.mujhe bhi yh baat shi lagi.or iss din ke baad meri or kartik ki baatein bhi bhtt kam ho gyi. kai baar raat ko mai yeh soch soch kr roti rhi ki mai uske bina kaise rahungi.

uske suggestions ke or uski bàatoin ke bina. kartik ki bhn ne mujhse kaha ki vo merse pyr to krta hai pr mujh pr trust krne se darr rha hai. and i was fine with that maine use bhulne ki koshish ki pr bhul nhi paayi. vo bhtt normal rhne lga or doston ke sth tym bhi spend kr ta thor enjoy bhi. ak larki thi jise vo apni best friend kehta tha lavanya jo uski best friend bann chuki thi or unn dono ki baatein bhi bohott zyada hoti thi to mujhe lga usse mujhse bilkul phark nhi pdta and he don&apos;t even love me. kbhi kbhi meri or uski baatein bhi ho jaya krti thi but only as a friend. shayd usne kbhi mere liye kuch feel kara hi nhi iss liya mujhe bhi usse bhulna ho ga.<br>

guys ab tk to use bhul nhi paayi uski or meri memories aj voh schl chorne ke baad bhi mere sth hai or hamesha rhegi but agr mai uski lyf mai kch hun hi nhi to mujhe bhi use bhulna padga pr kaise???? plzz tell mekyunki mai apni lyf mai usse move on nhii kr pa rhi hun.uske baare mai hi sochti rhti hun.. what shall i do??